Showing posts with label New Moon. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Moon. Show all posts

Monday, August 9, 2021

Angina

Anxiety has been
my constant company lately
Fear of the unknown,
unsure of what's on the horizon

It gripped my heart
and kept me frozen in place;
keeping me afraid 
of taking the next step

We may never know
what the future may bring
Or if I will even be a part
of that future I dream

Anxiety has been
my constant company lately,
And I have never been so alone
in the midst of this anticipation

Sunday, March 14, 2021

Somewhere Only We Know

It's two am
and I've lost count
how may times 
I imagined
the time when 
our souls will meet

It's two am
and I've lost sleep
from tossing and turning
wondering if 
my soul will recognize yours
when our eyes finally meet




Tuesday, January 12, 2021

Dare You to Move

another night closes in 
wrapped in blankets
and its make-believe warmth
i stared out my window
and saw the clear sky
i watched the stars
and felt a twinge in my heart
thinking how we might be 
looking at these same stars
foolishly thinking
that if only 
i was brave enough
i would have been 
wrapped in your arms instead




Sunday, November 15, 2020

Could I Love You Any More?

I asked myself 
countless of times
if falling in love
is truly a risk
worth taking.
Then came you
and I realized that
the question is 
now just rhetorical.
For how can love not be
a risk worth taking
if it's you who is there
waiting for me
to take that leap with you.



Sunrise, time flies, feels like a dream
Being close, inhaling, hard to believe
Seven billion people in the world
Finding you is like a miracle
Only this wonder remains



Monday, November 28, 2016

Note To Self From 2016

Dear 2016 Jhun,

First off. How was the road trip?!?!?! I seriously want to know. Were you able to make it? I hope to god you did because if you didn't, I promise I'll swear you off to the deepest darkest ends of the earth. Just kidding. For a moment. :P

So kiddo, how are we? I wonder where you are currently seated right now while you're reading this. Are you still surrounded by the books we've collected all these years? By the same walls that we've painted and written poetry on just a couple of weeks ago? Remember how you felt when you started repainting these walls and your heart just twisted a little bit because you knew that you're letting go of a part of you to the backseat of this ride because you felt that you have to do it to make space for new memories? I remember that after finishing this room and I looked around, it felt like the room became too small because my roots have finally grown too big for this place and they're longing to spread themselves in another place. So what did you do about it? Did you ignore that call or did you listen to it? What were your reasons? 

I wish you had yourself get lost. But not lost in the sense that you didn't know what to do with your life. I'm talking about getting lost in living - in fully experiencing your life not just by surviving it. When you let your own self decide where you want to go without the help of planned maps and  unwarranted advice. It doesn't hurt to listen to them from time to time, but I hope that the choices you've made are the ones that you wanted to do in the first place.

So where are we working now? I'm kinda curious as to where we've finally landed our feet on. Did you miss working in school? The holidays and class suspensions? I hope you didn't turn yourself into a workaholic idiot though. :P

What did we do? Any grand vacations that we had? What are the new things we've tried? Tell me your story. I promise I will be here to listen.

Yours,

2015 Jhun

P.S. Another weird coincidence. Because you wrote this post at home last night where the internet connection's still down (raawr) and was about to post it here in the office and when you opened up Tyler Knott's blog, this was his typewriter for the day. Need anymore signs my dear? :P



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Dear 2015 Jhun,

I can't believe it's been only a year since I wrote you this letter. After everything that happened, it felt longer. So where do I begin. Ah, I remember. Let's start with our 2015 yearender. We weren't able to join the tour because sadly, they ran out of slots when we were about to reserve. Don't be sad though, because we still managed to have that long needed vacation that we've wanted for a very long time. This time, we went to Baler. It's a camping adventure less the hassle of setting up our own camp and preparing our own food. It's more of a relaxing staycation with the perks of staying in a hotel, but instead of having a room in a high rise building with elegant foyers and fine dining restaurants, we stayed in a tent beside the beach. We were able to catch a wonderful view of the sunrise and caught glimpses of shooting stars falling from the sky. It's one for the books, that I can be sure of. :) 

As for your next question, yes, we're still in the same room that we painted a year ago. Same walls, same texts written on walls, same books and more. And yes, I can still remember how we felt suffocated in this place back then. And now I understand more why you did. Because everything felt too repetitive for us already that's why we felt the urge to move along. And I fear this will be an ongoing trend for us. That we cannot stay put in the same place for long periods of time, except maybe for this place that we call home. I don't know what to make of it, but for now, we're just going with the flow.

Because of this, we finally left our previous work last March. It felt surreal during that time beacuse everyting happened so fast. I know we've decided for months that we would leave by the end of the school year, but when the time came, I still couldn't believe that it was our last day. 

Now to our present work. The funny thing is, it's something (slightly) new. :P We're still working in a school, and it's a different one, but still a school (surprise!surprise!) so we didn't get to miss the holidays and such. Hahaha! But now, we're working in an inclusive school where we work with both typical kids and children with special needs. Let's just say we got carried away by a friend from our previous work that's why we got here. ;) 

Truth be told, this time around it felt more fulfilling even if our pay wasn't that high. It felt more like what we're doing means something more. And I guess this was what was lacking from our previous work. The real purpose. More than just making enough money to get through the day. The work is more tiring but at the end of the day, I appreciate how I spent my time. Don't get mad if I say that we turned into a little bit of a workaholic though. Because I'm telling you, what we're doing is something worth spending all our extra hours on. (I still can't believe how you were able to foresee what we're going to do even if we do not make any concrete plans for ourselves. 0_o)

As for now, I'm preparing for a three-day out-of-town trip for tomorrow. I forgot to tell you, maybe also this is why we felt too confined last year because this year, we're making a lot of trips between our current school and the other branch that we're building in another place. Let's just say it's a school within a nest of very, very old trees, situated in more than an acre wide land. Do you think it's wide enough for us already? ;)

I hoped you were happy with the things we did, because for me, I sure am. :)

Yours,

2016 Jhun


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Dear 2017 Jhun,


How's life? I hope you're doing fine. Seriously, as of this moment, I can't think of anything to say to you. It's like I'm afraid to ask you, and of what, I don't know too. Blame it on the hormones, I think? 

Okay, just so I can think of something, let's do a round of Chuwariwap. Right now Kodaline's One Day is playing. Somehow this part gave me the goosebummps 

"You've felt this way for far too long
Waiting for a change to come
You know you're not the only one

And life passes you by
Don't be wasting your time
On your own"

Now let's wait for the answer to the reason what's in it for next year...

and it says...

Ten Feet Tall by Afroack 

and I still can't comprehend why.

the next one is...

Beating Heart by Ellie Goulding

as for the last one...

The Sound by The 1975

now this cheered me up just because it's one of my faves

Let's just wait and see how your year will go. ;)

Seriously, even after all of this, I'm starting to get anxious again. It's like the coming year, I'll spend time waiting, for what, I hope you'll know the answer by then, once you read this. I hope you're still listening to your guts my dear. Trust them as much as I did, because as far as I can recall, it has never failed us. Go with the flow. See where life will take us. Believe.

I'll be waiting for your story soon

Yours,

2016 Jhun


Sunday, March 2, 2014

When Love Arrives

I won't spoil this anymore with more words from me. Just listen. Watch closely. Feel.

When Love Arrives
by Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye



I knew exactly what love looked like – in seventh grade

Even though I hadn’t met love yet, if love had wandered into my homeroom, I would’ve recognized him at first glance. Love wore a hemp necklace. 
I would’ve recognized her at first glance, love wore a tight french braid. 
Love played acoustic guitar and knew all my favorite Beatles songs.
Love wasn’t afraid to ride the bus with me. 
And I knew, I just must be searching the wrong classrooms, just must be checking the wrong hallways, she was there, I was sure of it. 
If only I could find him.

But when love finally showed up, she had a bowl cut. 
He wore the same clothes every day for a week.
Love hated the bus. 
Love didn’t know anything about The Beatles. 
Instead, every time I try to kiss love, our teeth got in the way.
Love became the reason I lied to my parents. I’m going to- Ben’s house. 
Love had terrible rhythm on the dance floor, but made sure we never missed a slow song. 
Love waited by the phone because she knew if her father picked up it would be: “Hello? Hello? I guess they hung up.”

And love grew, stretched like a trampoline. 
Love changed. Love disappeared, 
Slowly, like baby teeth, losing parts of me I thought I needed. 
Love vanished like an amateur magician, and everyone could see the trapdoor but me. 
Like a flat tire, there were other places I had planned on going, but my plans didn’t matter. 
Love stayed away for years, and when love finally reappeared, I barely recognized him. 
Love smelt different now, had darker eyes, a broader back, love came with freckles I didn’t recognize. 
New birthmarks, a softer voice. 
Now there were new sleeping patterns, new favorite books. 
Love had songs that reminded him of someone else, songs love didn’t like to listen to. So did I.

But we found a park bench that fit us perfectly
We found jokes that make us laugh. 
And now, love makes me fresh homemade chocolate chip cookies. 
But love will probably finish most of them for a midnight snack. 
Love looks great in lingerie but still likes to wear her retainer. 
Love is a terrible driver, but a great navigator. 
Love knows where she’s going, it just might take her two hours longer than she planned. 
Love is messier now, not as simple. 
Love uses the word “boobs” in front of my parents. 
Love chews too loud. 
Love leaves the cap off the toothpaste. 
Love uses smiley faces in her text messages. 
And turns out, love shits!

But love also cries. 
And love will tell you you are beautiful and mean it, over and over again. “You are beautiful.”
When you first wake up, “you are beautiful.” 
When you’ve just been crying, “you are beautiful.” 
When you don’t want to hear it, “you are beautiful.” 
When you don’t believe it, “you are beautiful.” 
When nobody else will tell you, “you are beautiful.” 
Love still thinks you are beautiful. 
But love is not perfect and will sometimes forget, when you need to hear it most, you are beautiful, do not forget this.

Love is not who you were expecting, love is not what you can predict. 
Maybe love is in New York City, already asleep;
You are in California, Australia, wide awake. 
Maybe love is always in the wrong time zone.
Maybe love is not ready for you. 
Maybe you are not ready for love. 
Maybe love just isn’t the marrying type. 
Maybe the next time you see love is twenty years after the divorce, love looks older now, but just as beautiful as you remembered. 
Maybe love is only there for a month. 
Maybe love is there for every firework, every birthday party, every hospital visit. 
Maybe love stays- maybe love can’t. 
Maybe love shouldn’t.

Love arrives exactly when love is supposed to, 
And love leaves exactly when love must. 
When love arrives, say, “Welcome. Make yourself comfortable.”
If love leaves, ask her to leave the door open behind her. 
Turn off the music, listen to the quiet, whisper, 
“Thank you for stopping by.”

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

A Peek on 2013

1. What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?
~ Made cover videos. 
~ Job hunting all by myself. 
~ Rode a real Ferris Wheel (the big one, not like those that can be found inside the arcades). 
~ Started my blog.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for this year?
~ Didn't keep one and not planning on starting one for this year :P

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
~ Nope

4. Did anyone close to you die?
~ Yes :( 

5. What countries did you visit?
~ Do the ones I visited through books count? No? Oh, then I guess I'd have to say none. :P

6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
~ Patience. Patience. Patience. I'm gonna need it big time.
~ Ability to start conversations with people just like what normal human beings do because somehow, I never got the hang of it. But now I swear, I'm willing to learn. Fingers crossed.
~ Savings. Need to distance myself from bookshops from now on. "Must...resist...the...smell...of...new...books"
~ A winning lottery ticket :)

7. What date/s from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
~ October 29 - that mind boggling text message that still bothers me up to now.
~ November 18 -  that weird game I played with the universe involving Shooting Stars and Airplanes
~ December 10 - signed the contract for a job that's quite surprising for me :P

8. What was(/were) your biggest achievement(/s) of the year?
~ Looked for a job. Landed it. All. By. Myself. (for an introvert like me who's not used to talking to strangers, trust me, that's a huge achievement)

9. What was your biggest failure?
~ None that I can't think of. Thankfully.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
~ Yip, but nothing serious. :)

11. What was(/were) the best thing(/s) you bought?
~ BOOKS! This would probably be my answer every year.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
~ Me of course. haha! :P

13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?
~ Most probably, this kid I mentioned in one of my posts. I still feel a little bit depressed whenever I think about him. :(

14. Where did most of your money go?
~ Please refer to the answer to question #11. ;)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
~ This is getting redundant. Again, please refer to #11. 

16. What song(/s) will always remind you of 2013?
~ Check out my 2013 playlist 

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? 
~ Definitely HAPPIER :)

ii. thinner or fatter? 
~ Thinner (ahem!ahem!)

iii. richer or poorer?
~ Rich on books. Poor on money. See the connection? 

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
~ Talking to people. It's...it's...so...hard...@_@ It just sucks my energy stores dry.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
~ Hiding behind my books. Can't help it. And waiting for signs before I do something because sometimes, the sign I'm waiting for is the act itself.

20. How did you welcome the New Year?
~ With a HUGE smile. :)
~ Jumping up and down hoping to increase my height for even just a few more centimeters. :P
~ Gobbling food - which would probably increase my width instead :/

21. Did you fall in love in 2013?
~ With fictional characters - yes, alot. With a real human being - nada. 

22. What was(/were) your favourite TV program(/s)?
~ Once Upon A Time
~ Sherlock

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
~ Yes. The strangers who block my way whenever I have to go somewhere.

24. What was the best book you read?
~ What WAS the best book? You're making me pick one? Are you freaking serious?!  This should be "What WERE the best BOOKS...?". Now that it's fixed, let's see...there's The Traveler by Daren Simkin, This Is All by Aidan Chambers, Tunnel Vision by Keith Lowe, The Giver by Lois Lowry, books by John Green (Looking for Alaska, An Abundance of Katherines, Paper Towns, The Fault In Our Stars), books by Gayle Forman (If I Stay, Where She Went, Just One Day, Just One Year) and books by Stephanie Perkins (Anna and the French Kiss, Lola and the Boy Next Door). There, happy now? 

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
~ Again, there goes that "was" again. You seriously do not believe that a Gemini like me could only pick one, do you? O_o
~ For songs: Smack Into You by Jon McLaughlin, Sad Song by We The Kings, Kiss Me by Ed Sheeran, Tea and Toast by Lucy Spraggan, Acapella by Karmin
~ For artists: Sunderland, Parachute, Jamie Campbell Bower, He Is We, Zedd

26. What did you want and get?
~ Books

27. What did you want and not get?
~ Books. I'm just a simple girl, with very simple needs. 

28. Favorite film(/s) of this year?
~ Sound City - a documentary about the Sound City Studio directed and produced by Dave Grohl. It's downright AWESOME! :)

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
~ I celebrated my 23rd birthday by going to church. Spent most of the day alone, strolling around. Did alot of writing. Met with the family later on for a dinner out. 

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
~ Don't have one. What I wore on 2013 were most probably the same clothes I wore the year before, and the year before that and so on and so forth. I'm just not into fashion that much. If I were to describe my fashion style, I usually go for the comfortable look.

31. What kept you sane?
~ Who says that I am? 

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
~ Hhhhmmm. Johnny Depp is out for the moment because I'm still mad at him for breaking up with Vanessa Paradis. For now, at the top is Ed Sheeran. :)

33. Who is your real-person crush?
~ Got me there. Doesn't Ed Sheeran count? He's a person and as far as I know, he's real. If you mean by ordinary, everyday people lurking around, then nada.

34. Who did you miss?
~ My dads. :/

35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.
~ It's too much of a cliche but with all of the people who died in 2013, it's just too real to ignore: Life is short.

36. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year

The doors are open, the wind is really blowing
The night sky is changing overhead
~ "Closer" by Tegan and Sara

Looking Forward to 2013...


1) GOALS/DREAMS FOR THE YEAR 2014:

~ Fill my fund jars up to the brim.
~ Be the best that I can be.
~ Do a lot of crazy stuff.
~ Witness something magical! 

2) PREDICTIONS FOR THE YEAR 2014:

A. LOVE
~ Surprise Me! Truthfully, I don't have any idea and I won't expect. Que sera sera...

B. CAREER
~ I'm gonna be awesome! It's the new year and a new job, a clean slate. Hopefully, I could fill it with lots of colorful doodles and create a pretty picture.


There. Hope you had fun.Wishing you all an awesome 2014! Cheers! :)

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Santa Can You Hear Me?

Since it's New Moon and it's the last month for the year, me and my moon sister Rhio decided to make our last new moon post for 2013 something special. So here's my Christmas Wishlist for this year:

First things first, I wish that I could spend this holiday season with the whole family. If I could only have one wish, this would be it. It's the only thing that could make this Christmas extra-special. :)

Next, I wish for more patience and  courage. For what? I don't know. And I guess that's what makes it scarier for me. I just feel (oh there goes that feeling again!:|) that I'd need these to make my 2014 awesome, so there. 

Third, for everyone to feel the warmth of the Christmas cheer, especially by those who were affected by the recent disasters and tragedies all around the world. They may not have gotten over their grief and loss by this time, but the least the rest of us could do is share our blessings with them and make them feel that they're loved. I may sound like a hippy on a high by saying this but I'll say it anyway "Spread love and peace people! Love makes the world go round." ;)

There goes my top three wishes for Christmas and now...it's time to be greedy - ahem! I mean - to be wishful... :P

1. For the book-geek me: BOOKS of course! What else can I say? They're my first love.  :) Any book will do, but if I were to choose (haha!:P), these titles would do the trick:

"The Bell Jar" by Sylvia Plath
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*** I want this book because I've always been fascinated with Sylvia Plath's poetry. :)
 "Ulysses" by James Joyce
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*** This one's special because I learned that this book has its own special holiday 

~ the Bloomsday ~ which happens to be my birthday as well. :)
 "Saving June" and "Speechless" by Hannah Harrington 
*** I've already read Saving June in ebook format but I got attached to the story 
(maybe because our names sound the same), that's why I want a physical copy too, 
and Speechless has an intriguing premise making me want to read it too. :)
 "If I Stay" and "Just One Day" by Gayle Forman
*** I've already read these too, regretfully in ebook formats also. :| 
But they gave me so much feels that I want to have my own physical copies too. :)
2. Record Player and Vinyls
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*** That sound when the needle makes contact with the vinyl...aaahhh...feels like music for me already.
What can I say? This gift's for me old soul. :)
3. In Utero 20th Anniversary Edition by Nirvana
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*** This is for the forever-90s-grunge-kid me. ;)
4. Skin and Bones Live in Hollywood by Foo Fighters
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*** This for the present grunge/rockstar me. haha! :P
4. Snow Globes and Toy Trains
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*** Now these are for the misty-eyed-Santa-believer-kid-me. 

If there's one thing I'm grateful for from my parents, 
it's that they raised us as kids who "believe" 
no matter how impossible or illogical it maybe. :)
5. Red Stilettos
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*** And lastly, these sparkly red stilettos is for the strong-independent-woman in me. ;)
Gotta be ready to kick some ass on 2014. haha! :)
If only they could have magic the same as Dorothy's slippers.
So that when the going gets tough after I kicked some butt and I'd need a means for escape,
I could just click my heels and say...
 "There's no place like home!"
*poof!*

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Coffee for Two

***Now it's my turn. Here's my own version of a "sparks fly moment" - this actually is the story on how the characters in my other story "INFINITE WORLD" met. Please do bear with me and my a-little-bit-longer-than-usual post though. Hope you'll like it. :) ~ jhun

“Finally rest day, we meet again” she thought, as she slipped through the doorway of her workplace. While strolling through the cobbled streets on this dark and gloomy afternoon, she thought of the books waiting for her from the bookstore near home.  She can’t help but feel excited to pick it up and start her weekend reading list. That’s how she usually spends her off days. Wake up, grab a bowl of cereals, play one of her LPs, pick the first book from the stack and spend the rest of the day on her favourite reading spot – by the windowsill.

Near the subway station, she noticed a busker playing the guitar on the sidewalk and, being a sucker for good music, she stopped a few meters away from the crowd forming around him as he played a couple of songs requested by the audience. She enjoyed listening to him, blown away by his talent in making complicated riffs seem easy as his fingers flew gracefully on his guitar, which somehow made her wish, “If only I could play it as good as him”. She was about to leave when suddenly, she recognized the intro to the *song that he was going to play next. 

This made her stop on her tracks and turn around, as if his music was pulling her in. She pushed her way through the now bigger crowd until she reached the front and just stood there, her gaze transfixed to the guy playing her song.  And when he began to sing, her heart jump-dived to her stomach, tears brimming in her eyes as the memory of her father flashed across her mind. His heartfelt performance made her think that maybe he too had lost someone, or if not, then he’s just a really, really good performer. As the song ended, she felt that she too must give him a little something in return for his wonderful gift, so she opened her purse and grabbed a couple of bills and laid it on the open guitar case on his front. Feeling that it wasn’t enough, she looked at him and waited until she caught his eyes and when she finally did, she mouthed a soft “Thank You” and suddenly left as she beat her way through the crowded station.

Still a little bit shaken from her unusual detour, she ran to the platform so that she could catch her train. The doors are starting to close, but she’s pretty sure that she can make it. She was surprised though when a hand suddenly grabbed her from behind and pulled her away from the closing doors, leaving her speechless, as she watched the train leave without her. She turned around ready to strangle the person who made her miss her train, but was dumbfounded instead when she recognized that the person was no other than the guy who was playing outside just a little while ago.

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“Where did you get that?” he asked in between huffs, trying to regain his breath. Confused and a little bit irritated she answered, “got what?”

“That.” Pointing to the necklace she was wearing.

Her hand flew to the locket, gripping it tight as she replied, “I bought it. What’s your problem by the way? Didn’t you notice that you just made me miss my train? Now I won’t be able to pick up my stuff from the shop before it closes. Thanks to you.” she said irritably.

“I’m sorry. This won’t take long I promise. I know this may sound weird, but can you just please let me buy that necklace from you? Just name your price and I’d gladly pay for it.”

This confused her even more. She stared at him and noticed that he wasn't just only out of breath, but he looked like a kid who was asking a gift from Santa. Afraid that she was getting assaulted by a crazy man, she moved a couple of steps away from him. She jumped to her feet though when his hand shot out of nowhere and grabbed her closer to him. 

“Are you trying to kill yourself?” he said angrily as he looked over her back. 

When she turned her head, that’s when she noticed that she almost fell to the rail tracks. Feeling chastised yet irritated at the same time, she pulled her arm away from his grip and was about to leave when suddenly he spoke again, “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have shouted at you. It’s my fault that you got scared. It’s just that, that necklace is really important to me and I’ve been looking for it everywhere. Please. I’d pay anything just please give it back to me.” His eyes pleading, making her heart melt and skip at the same time.

“How can I be sure that this really belonged to you?”

“Inside it are pictures of a man and a woman. That is if you still haven’t changed it. If you look at it closely, I’m sure you’d notice why.”

Her mind racing, mentally looking inside the locket, and sure enough that’s when she remembered the face of the woman. But then she realized that the same face now also belongs to the stranger standing in front of her. He noticed when she finally understood his reason and pulled her to a nearby bench.

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As they sat down, she was still in shock as she kept on staring at his face. Feeling a little bit uncomfortable by her reaction, he took out his wallet and flipped it open to pull out a small picture and gave it to her. Snapping out of her daze, she took it and noticed that it has three people on it. Looking at it closely, that’s when she realized that she was looking at the same couple in her locket, only now they’re accompanied by a little boy. It’s a pretty little picture of a happy family enjoying the sun by the beach.

Opening the locket, she looked at the pictures again and lets out a shaky breath. Turning her gaze back to the guy sitting beside her she asked, “How is this possible?” this time, with awe in her voice

Now it’s his turn to be confused with her question, “how is what possible?” he replied

“You. Here. Telling me that this couple are your parents. Am I right?”

“Yes, you're right.I know this is all surprising. I myself didn’t expect that I’d see that again after a mugger snatched it away from me. But why are you asking me why is it possible that they’re my parents?”

“Nothing. It’s just that I’ve been wondering about their story for so long. That’s the only reason why I even bought it in the first place. And now, their son is here, talking to me. Everything just feels so surreal.”

Letting out a soft sigh, she removed the chain around her neck. Giving it one final longing look, she took his hand and laid it out on his palm and closed his fingers around it with hers. She gave him a small smile and said “There you go. Now take care of it. Thanks for lending it for a little while.” Grabbing her things, she was about to take her leave when he asked “But what about your money? How much did you pay for it? I’m sure you didn’t buy this cheap. I’ll pay you back for it.”

“You were right. It wasn’t cheap. I was actually broke during that time when I bought it.” she said, laughing at the memory “But don’t worry. It was all worth it.” giving him a little smile.

“How about I take you to dinner instead? That would make me feel better. You don’t know how much this means to me. And I still feel bad for making you miss your train by the way.“

“You don’t have to, believe me it’s okay. I’ll probably just take the bus and pick my stuff out tomorrow morning.” “And I for one as a rule, don’t go out and talk to strangers because that’s what my mother taught me while I was growing up.” she added with a little wink

“Hey! You already met my parents. Does it still make me a stranger?” he quipped, then he thought of something that she couldn't probably resist

“What about I tell you their story over a cup of coffee? What do you think?”

The offer surprised her, and unexpectedly, she found herself thinking about accepting it. This coming from a socially awkward girl, who’d rather stay at home with her books rather than going out with her friends, was quite surprising. But then again, what the hell, she wondered. She’s been dreaming about their story for a long time and, now that the opportunity presented itself, who was she to refuse? Giving herself a little push on the back, she let out a sigh and said “Where are we off to then?”

*****
They took the bus and walked the rest of the way to the best coffee shop in town, near the bookstore that she was supposed to go to earlier. Noticing her look of longing to the “closed” sign on the window, he made a wild guess “Is thereby any chance that that's where you were rushing to?”

“Yip” she answered. She was surprised though when he pulled her to the door and he removed a set of keys from his pocket. As he fumbled with it she asked “What are you doing?”

“We’re picking up your stuff” he said simply, as if it was that obvious

Still confused, she asked “How in god’s name did you get a key for this place? I’d gladly sell a limb, even my heart out to the devil just to get one.”

Laughing at her statement he replied “First things first, ‘thou shalt not use thy god’s name in vain’, second ‘be always careful on what you wish for, third ‘never make a deal with the devil, you’ll always lose.’ and to answer your question, I have a key because I live here.” he replied nonchalantly.

Her jaw dropped as he pulled her into the premises of the store.  She was still in awe when he released her arm and moved to the back of the counter and browsed through the stacks of book lined up on the wall. Turning back to her he asked, “Which one is yours?” Still speechless, she moved closer and looked across the counter, recognizing the titles on one stack; she pointed it to him without uttering a single word. Wrapping her books in brown paper, he tied it with a ribbon and handed it over to her. Closing the lights inside the shop, he led her outside, to the chilly night once more.
*****
They took their seats across from each other. Their coffees sitting patiently waiting on the table, as they stared at each other for a long time, both mulling over the string of coincidences that happened today, when finally she asked “Do you really live in the book shop? How did that happen? I haven’t seen you once since I moved here and that was over a year ago. I thought you’re just an ordinary street performer.”

Taking his first sip, he set his cup slowly back to the table before he answered, “Yes, I do live there. That bookshop belonged to my mother’s family and was passed on from generation to generation. It just so happens that the present generation is only me. So I guess you could say that it’s now mine from the moment my mother died.” He took another sip before he continued, “And about my busking, it’s just my past time. I have regular gigs though, just in case you’re interested.”

“Really? Then why haven’t I seen you there? I’m always stopping by that shop after work.” 

“Let’s just say I’d rather pay other people to manage the place rather than do it myself. And I’ve only been back a week ago so I guess that pretty much answers your question.”

Still feeling a bit dazed, with goosebumps crawling across her skin, she warmed her hands on her cup as she replied “Yeah, I guess so.”

After a short awkward silence, he clapped his hands and said “So, are you ready to hear their story?”

As the rain began to pour, he told her the story that she’s been wanting to hear for a long, long time...
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*****
“There. That’s it. Well I guess, you could say that the rest was history. They had me, they lived a happy life together, then they faced death together.” he said as he concluded their story a couple of hours after they sat down.

“I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine losing my parents at such an early age. At least I got to enjoy my childhood with my parents. Although up until now, I’m still missing my dad. Even if three years had already passed, when I think about it, it still feels like yesterday. ” her eyes clouding over the memory.

“Don’t worry about me; I do still get sad from time to time over losing them.  But when I think about the time I spent with them, even if it was cut short sooner than I wanted to, it was all worth it. At least I grew up knowing that they loved me until the end, unlike some of the kids who had parents, but then was battered and abused by the same people who was supposed to take good care of them. Besides, I still have my aunt and she gave me all the love and care that I needed while growing up.”

“I suppose so.” She answered, although her eyes remained downcast. Without thinking, he leaned across the table and took her hands in his, both of them surprised by the sudden contact, as if electricity from their joined hands shot across their bodies, making them more aware of each other’s presence. Not letting go, he looked at her intently and said “Believe me, I’m happy. To tell you the truth, this could probably one of the best days in my life since it happened.”

Thinking that he was referring to the moment when he finally found the necklace she nervously replied, “Then I’m happy for you. After a long time, you’re lucky you found it again.“ talking fast due to uneasiness because he’s still not letting go of her hand, she added “Me too, this could probably be also one of my best days. After all, one of the greatest mysteries in my life was finally answered.” This time giving him the best smile that she could muster through her nervousness.

Without breaking the contact, he shook his head as he said “No, that’s just not it. Yes, I’m glad that I found it again. But what made this day better was because I met you.” this made her gasp, but he continued  “I know you probably think I say that to all the girls I meet, but to tell you the truth, this is the first time I’ll ask out a girl that I’ve never met before. I’m not one of those guys who usually slide next to a random girl in a bar and ask for her number. I’m the type who’d rather nurse his beer alone while sitting on the side lines.”

Taking a deep breath, as if he too was feeling shaky because of this moment he said, “And you, you’re practically a stranger to me and yet, there’s something about you that made me want to know you better.”

Her mind still reeling from his words, he asked her “So, would you give me the honor of taking you out in a proper date?”

“Date?” she repeated, still unbelieving that this is happening to her, “You’re asking me out on a date?”

“Yes ma’am. Yes I am. You don’t have to be that nervous.” He added laughingly, “I’m not asking you to marry me...well, not yet anyway.” giving her that familiar smile that for the past few hours made her stomach flip and turn.

Could this be it? She wondered. Should I say yes? What if he was only affected by the events of the day? What if in the end he’ll realize I’m really not his type? What if he was just being nice to me but in the end, he’ll decide to just go on his own way? Would the risk be worth it? Would it –

He tugged the hands still clasped in his, bringing her attention back to him, his stare making the rest of her numb as he said “Stop overthinking it. Just go out with me and let’s see what happens.”
*****
“Wow, I still can’t believe everything that happened today.” she said with a shiver running through her spine. It's already close to midnight, and as they’re walking down the street to the stoplight, the heavy rain finally softened into a drizzle. She’s still thinking about everything they talked about while downing their second, third and fourth cups of coffee – from music, to books, to playing the guitar – he even offered her a tutorial, free of charge.

“Yeah, me too. I really didn’t expect that I’d find this again.” He said as he reached for the locket that he’s now wearing around his neck.

“Let me tell you a secret.” she whispered, as they stood by the stoplight, waiting for the light to change.

Tucking the necklace back under his shirt, he moved his now smiling face closer to hers, suddenly making her heart slam against her ribs, making it harder for her to breathe. Feeling unnerved by his proximity, she tried to step away but found herself instead backed against the light post.  - Damn that smile. How is he doing this to me? – she thought

“What is it?” he whispered back

“Well, I was kind of expecting these things from the moment I woke up.”

Now curious, he raised an eyebrow and gave her a little nod so she went on,

“I know you’ll find this weird. It’s okay with me if you want to break our date.” She paused, as the word ‘date’ made her stomach flip out once more. “But you see, I have this belief that something weird always happens to me during full moon. And even though you can’t see it because it’s cloudy, well tonight’s the first night of full moon.”

“When I said that I expected ‘these things’, it doesn’t mean that I know what would happen. I just know that it would be something weird.  And I guess you could say that this day has been full of it.”  She dropped her eyes to floor as she felt a blush slowly creeping up her neck.

As the drizzle slowly turned to a heavy downpour, she noticed on her periphery that the lights had already changed. So she took all the courage that she could muster to look up, expecting him to turn around any moment because the rain is now pouring harder. But when she did, her heart beat against her chest wildly when she realized that he was still looking at her eyes. 

His lips moving slowly closer to hers, he murmured "Does this also count as a weird moment then?"

What happened next simply caught her off guard, as suddenly, she felt a pair of warm lips pressing softly against her trembling ones. With eyes still open, his hands moved to her back, pulling her away from the light post, moving her body closer to his.  Unknowingly, her hands moved to his neck, gripping him tight; and when that too felt as if it wasn’t enough, she moved it higher until they’re now combing through his hair and that’s when she lost herself to the feel of her first real kiss.

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*****
Running across the pavement until they reached her porch, she turned around and found him still standing down the steps, out on the pouring rain. “Why don’t you come up?” she asked.

Giving her a devious grin, he answered “I thought your mother taught you to never talk to strangers, and now you’re inviting me in? Is this a sign of teenage rebellion?”

Laughing at his answer, she replied “When I said come up, I meant here on the porch so you could wait for me on the outside, while I go in and come back out with the umbrella that I was planning to lend you.”

“Well, I guess that means I struck out huh?” his smile now turned into a boyish grin “Never mind with the umbrella. I’ll be fine, I'm wet anyway. See you tomorrow then, I guess. Goodnight m'lady” he said, with a small bow

“Yeah, see you tomorrow. Goodnight to you too...m'lord” she said, while doing a little curtsy of her own

She stood there as he walked down the street back to the direction of his place when suddenly, he stopped and took something out of his pocket. Wondering about what he was doing, she waited until he turned around and walked back to where she was standing.

“I forgot to give you something” he said as he reached her.

Taking one of her hands in his, he put something cold on her palm and what she saw surprised her.

It was a key. The key to the book shop.

Without a word, he planted another quick kiss on her lips before he ran down the porch steps and after a few seconds, turned around once more as he shouted 

“Now you don't need to make a deal with the devil. But I’m planning to collect the payment soon and I don’t want any of your limbs. You hear?” And with that he turned around and ran the rest of his way home.

Her heart still pounding as words from one of their conversations earlier bounced back at her...

“How in God’s name did you get a key for this place? I’d gladly sell a limb, even my heart out to the devil just to get one.”

With that memory putting a smile up on her face, she went inside and closed the door, but not before she murmured a soft “Thank You” while looking up to the rain filled sky.



* just in case you're interested with the the song that he played outside the station, here's the link : Leader of the Band by Dan Fogelberg 


**original post can be found in the Moon Sister's Blog :)