I'm sure a lot of people who knew me well are probably wondering why I'm sending you a hate mail. Why? Because they all know that I'm a big fan of yours. Yeah, so now I guess you're confused too (that is if you really are reading this, which I highly doubt, but still...) Don't be though, because I'll tell you in a minute. Just let me tell you first how I became a fan of yours.
It started back in high school, when you introduced to us Capt. Jack Sparrow in the first installment of the Pirates in the Caribbean and, right then you caught my interest because you were different. At first, I was swooning and ooohhh-ing and aaahhh-ing over pictures and stories of you that I saw on the internet. Back then, all I saw was the glossed-over version of you, the superficial part of you. The person that most of the ladies shout at "Marry Me Johnny" chants. That was how I saw you before.
Later on, I started reading articles about you (don't get me wrong, I'm not a stalker - really, I'm not - I'm just curious about your life story...so there) and that's when I began to really idolize you. Because you see, in you I found a kindred spirit. Finally! there's someone out there who knows and understands how I feel. Someone who loves books, music and weird stuff as much as me. And when I learned of the long relationship you had with Vanessa, I was ecstatic because it gave me hope that "weird people" like us could have a shot on happiness.
Then the news of your break-up came out...and it broke my heart. It even freaked me out when people, knowing that I'm a fan of yours, kept on joking me - "Hey! Have you heard the news? Johnny Depp and Vanessa Paradis broke-up. Now you have a chance on him." - But instead of being happy, I was shattered. Because for me it felt like you broke a promise. I was in shambles and it made me mad. That's why I hated you - let me correct it - that's why I hated what happened to you. Because I thought that since you finally found your own happiness, that it's probably my turn now.
I know it may sound stupid and overly-dramatic for me to react that way, especially for someone who doesn't know you personally and who has no idea on what really happened or what went wrong between you two. But what can I say? I'm just an ordinary-high-on-hormones-emotional-girl who happens to idolize you and, what happened to you and your family somewhat affected me too.
I just wish that now you're happy and whoever you're with makes it all worth it for you. May you have a good life and happy holidays...I hope
Jhun
P.S. Just in case you're wondering why I only decided to write to you now...well, I'm wondering too. Maybe because it's the season of miracles and I hope that with a stroke of luck, you'd get to read this.
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