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i met you in a dream

in the middle of your grief.

i can't remember your face,

but i can remember your pain.

the sound of your weeping

still lingers in my memory.

all i wanted to say is,

i'm sorry if i woke up

and left you behind with your tears.

*** Sooooooooo. Here's the story. I had this weird dream around six months ago. It was quite different from the ones I've had before, because this one didn't feel like a dream at all. Usually, I can differentiate dream from reality once I wake up, yet with this one, it felt all too real.

The dream went like this. I was with this person and  it seemed like it was more than a day. We've been to places and it was all good. Then, the setting changed and suddenly we were in a room. This person was trying so hard to hold on to his emotion because he just lost someone. Someone that I also met and knew in my dream. But when I approached him and told him that it's okay to let it all out, he held on to me and that's when the dam broke. God, I can still remember how his howl sounded like and just by thinking about it, I can still feel this tight clench around my chest. Damn it. Now I wanna cry again. Anyway. So another shift in the setting. We were walking around at night and we found ourselves in a familiar part of the city. It's a street with tall buildings and the street was dark. Then, we reached a building with a lighted room that can be seen from the outside. When I took a peek, I saw that inside it was painted dark blue and was only illuminated by the glow of fairy lights. It looked like the sky at night. I showed it to him and I remember telling him "Look at the lights. They look like stars. Remember how much she loved the stars?" (hence the title of the post). And that's how we ended up crying all over again on the sidewalk. That was the last thing I remembered before I woke up and I realized that I was crying and sobbing for real.

Most of you are probably thinking right now that I'm just making too much out of it. That it was just a dream. I don't know. But the thing is, it left me a nagging feeling that this person is known to me. Probably not in this world, but in another reality. I just feel really bad for leaving this person behind when I woke up from my dream. I hope everything is well and will be better.