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I never wanted to,
but now I suddenly
felt the need rising deep
within me.
It wasn't really sudden,
not really.
Like a small fire
slowly licking its way up
through the pyre,
until it was strong enough
to spread warmth
across the cold night.
I never wanted to
learn how to need you,
but it's one of the things 
I can never make myself forget.
I never wanted to say it
but my breath hitches in my throat
everytime I try to keep the words in.
As if once I let the 
next breath out,
I wouldn't be able to keep 
the words from pouring out
and you'd hear me say...