Kiss the Rain

I stare out my window
watching the rain clouds pass by.
Wishing that - even if only for a day - 
I could be them and I'll sail 
through the skies, towards you.
Let me pour down 
the rain I carry over your rooftop 
and listen to the music
I create with the pattering drops.
Feel the wind blow against your skin
while thinking it was me holding you.
Over the sound of thunder,
hear me as I whisper your name.

Fill in the Blanks

I never wanted to,
but now I suddenly
felt the need rising deep
within me.
It wasn't really sudden,
not really.
Like a small fire
slowly licking its way up
through the pyre,
until it was strong enough
to spread warmth
across the cold night.
I never wanted to
learn how to need you,
but it's one of the things 
I can never make myself forget.
I never wanted to say it
but my breath hitches in my throat
everytime I try to keep the words in.
As if once I let the 
next breath out,
I wouldn't be able to keep 
the words from pouring out
and you'd hear me say...

Unwritten

Unscribbled thoughts 
roaming freely inside my head,
as the reins were carelessly
tossed into the wind.
Picking up a pen
to let them all spill out,
along with the ink 
onto the sheets spread out.
Listen to me while I 
silently scream out loud.
Hear the letters rattle
as your eyes hear the sound.

As You Wish

If you saw my post last night about the Princess Bride (and have watched the film) then you probably can understand that I still have some leftover "feels" from then. ;) I miss watching movies like this that aren't complicated but at the same time, not shallow either. I'll just share some of the clips that are quite memorable and made me all gooey and cheesy and laughing out loud. ^o^

Did I just say I *sawooooned* over this? ;) :P

One of the most epic reunion scenes. 

"Literally" made me want to roll out of my bed from laughing. :))

"Do not rush me sonny. You rush a miracle man, you get rotten miracles."

"Hello, my name is Inigo Montoya. 

You killed my father, prepare to die."

"Your ears you keep and I'll tell you why. So that every shriek of every child at seeing your hideousness will be yours to cherish. Every babe that weeps at your approach, every woman who cries out, "Dear God! What is that thing," will echo in your perfect ears. That is what to the pain means. It means I leave you in anguish, wallowing in freakish misery forever."

Here's to hopelessly wishing that a time would come wherein I could use these lines. :))

And of course...

ehem ehem...

"Since the invention of the kiss, 

there have been five kisses that were rated 

the most passionate, the most pure. 

This one left them all behind."

The End

Have Faith in Me

*****

Have faith in me...

The Princess Bride

Hola! Looks like I won't be able to write anything for today because after having a very busy day, I decided to spend the rest of it by watching a feel good movie. Aaaaand it's this one. Gotta fill up my jar of happy thoughts in preparation for the week ahead. ;)

"As you wish..." 

Guilty Pleasure

Hi there everyon.:) Pardon me for the songs that I'm going to randomly post here. Actually, they really are not that random. 'Cause these are my guilty pleasure songs and it hurts my ego a little bit to say this, but I like them (at times?haha.just trying to save some of my pride) because they perk me up during the worst of times. Enjoy! (I hope) :P

Sparks

Pretty Girls

Black Magic

Marvin Gaye

***don't get me wrong, this song is actually good. it's just that I can't sing it out loud with kids around, right? :P

Where Are Ü Now

This is probably the ultimate guilty pleasure song of all time. 

Bieber + Skrillex

I don't know what's gotten into me but 

I always  find myself bobbing my head to the beat everytime this song plays.

Shoot me.

Photograph

*** originally posted in the Moon Sister's Blog. ;)

It seems like we've neglected our blog for quite (?!) a long time now. So to make up for it, here's a song from us that hopefully will make you smile (or strangle us to death; whichever floats your boat.:P) As usual, it's just us, singing our hearts out along with secret jokes, side glances and missed cues and skipped chords. but as what we've said, we're just trying to have some fun. Keep your heads up, BLUE MOON's coming. ;) 

Thunder

I didn't understand before

how they can see the wonder in

thunder and lightining.

All I knew then was that they 

frighten me whenever 

lightning strikes

and thunder rumbles.

Instinct forces me to close my eyes

and cover my ears

and loudly count to three

until it all fades away.

I never understood them before

until I watched the lightning

strike and lit up 

a spark in your eyes

with your arms gripping me tight;

while your heart 

rumbles with the sound of thunder,

as it beats fast against mine.

Bloodhound

A starved wolf lurking

through the shadows,

scavenging for scraps

while traversing through

unpaved paths.

It learned how to be content

with the pieces it found

for it knows that it was all

it would ever need.

Until the smell of blood

sifted through its nostrils

and lit up the spark

inside its veins 

that has been sleeping 

for far way too long.

The spark of a long

forgotten dream,

drawing a howl from 

deep inside its chest

to the moon

upon remembering.

Time

I have too much 
time on my hands
that sometimes 
it makes me wonder,
what good will 
it do to me,
to have all of 
these precious seconds
in my hands,
if I don't have you
here in my arms?

Time is wasting 

Time is walking 

You ain't no friend of mine 

I don't know where I'm goin' 

I think I'm out of my mind 

Thinking about time 

And if I die tomorrow, yeah 

Just lay me down in sleep

***Truthfully, I wasn't planning on writing anything today because I've been too tired lately. Yet somehow, these words popped out of my mind so I had to type it. The funny thing though is I wasn't sure which song I was going to use for its title, then suddenly, this song unexpectedly blared out of my radio. Coincidence? Well, I prefer to think that the universe is just trying to help me figure things out. ;)

Hold Back The River

I've been aimlessly 
wandering these streets
for quite sometime,
never fearing that 
I might get lost,
for my feet
knew these streets,
with each of its 
crack on the asphalt
and the street signs 
on every corner.
Even with my eyes closed,
they knew how to take me home.
I never feared getting lost.
But when I looked 
at the sky tonight
and saw that the rain clouds 
hid the stars from my view, 
my heart began to race 
and fear rose to my throat;
for if I can't see the stars tonight,
how will I find my way to you?

Hold back the river, let me look in your eyes

Hold back the river, so I

Can stop for a minute and be by your side

Hold back the river, hold back

Hold back the river, let me look in your eyes

Hold back the river, so I

Can stop for a minute and see where you hide

Hold back the river, hold back

Crayon Etching

Everything used to be

rainbows and rose-tinted lenses,

and sunshines and moonbeams;

before life happened to us.

Suddenly, splashes of colors

turned into murky shades of gray,

leaving nothing behind but

a canvas painted in black.

All was lost

until we let our hands learn 

how to pick up a stick

and use it to scrape a path

through the wax;

to create a new picture 

that will reveal

the colors hiding underneath.

"Let me show you my true colors,

it ain't no rainbow..."

Same Ground

Everything I knew,

I've learned here in this

place where I grew.

Rooted to this same spot 

on the ground,

I had my heart 

broken and mended.

I wanted to be where you are,

to see the world anew,

but I'm too scared

to move these feet

because you might already have 

moved yours to some place new

once I get there.

If all else fail, would you be there to love me?

When all else fail, would you be brave to see right through me?

Germination

Life seeks life

from the dark.

Sucking tears

from upturned soil

as it patiently waits

for its growing limbs

to claw its way out

of the dark

and into the light.

***Been feeling gloomy for quite some time so I made this one for everyone out there who feels like life's been pretty sh**ty lately.

       Keep faith. 

             Never lose hope.

                   Just think about it.

                           All these sh**ty things are just the "soil" that we needed to get planted on so that we'll grow. ;)

Broken Doll

Frozen smile painted

over a pair of downturned lips.

Tattooed trails of tears 

on cheeks concealed by layers of rouge.

A sobbing breath

disguised as a muffled laugh.

He was the only one

who saw what's hidden underneath.

The only one who was

brave enough to offer

the handkerchief in his pocket

to wipe away the mask she wore,

to see the cracks on her porcelain skin 

that she's been trying to hide.

source

Figures of Speech

I'm too tired of all 
the similes and the metaphors,
of the endless comparisons
and the exaggerations.
Why do we complicate things
with all its figurative meanings?
When all that we needed to do
just to be completely understood
was to literally say 
the words that we mean.
Sometimes I wonder why can't 
I just say it loud and simple.
I miss you.

One Of These Days

Someday I might 
be brave enough
to risk it all,
strong enough
to hold on to.
I do not know when or how.
All I know is that 
if that day comes,
it will be you 
I will search for first.
I only wish 
I won't be too late.

What would you do if I could have you?

Oh if I could I'd let you feel everything I'm thinking

Wouldn't that be nice?

She Will Be Loved

She was this girl who lived in a house facing the sea. She was fond of sitting by the porch to watch the sky and the sunsets, and it's where she welcomes people who came to visit her. She accepts them with arms open wide, yet she never, not even for once, asked them in. She would only let them settle themselves comfortably on the lounge chairs that were set up by the porch, but never inside the comforts of her home. They never minded it though, these people, because even though she never let them in, she would always come out and greet them, and serve them lemonades and cookies while they do their catching up by the porch. They never asked for a reason, and fair enough, she never told them why.

One rainy day, a young man passed by and saw her sitting on her chair by the porch, her face upturned to the gloomy skies. He startled her when he asked if it's possible that he might take shelter for awhile under her roof, and being the polite girl that she was, she welcomed him onto her porch and offered him a warm cup of tea and a towel to dry himself with. Grateful for her graciousness, he told her stories of his adventures in return. She was awed by his stories that they didn't even realize that the rain had already stopped, not until when they heard the birds chirping outside and she pointed it out to him. Noticing his cue, he bid her farewell and asked for permission if he may visit again. 

Days, weeks, months passed by and the young man kept on coming back to her house for a visit. And during those times, just like with the others, she never invited him in. He noticed it early on, for during his earlier visits, other people also came to see her and everyone received the same treatment. A warm greeting and a hug and a seat by the porch, but never inside her home. So one day, he courageously asked her the reason why she never did and it caught her by surprise because all of her life, he was the only one who bothered to ask why. It took her awhile to gather her wits yet he patiently waited for her to answer his question. 

"It's easier for me that way." was all she said after quite some time.

"Easier for you to what?" he asked, when it seemed like she wouldn't tell him more

"Easier for me to say goodbye."
"Because you see, they never really came in. It only seemed like they did, but in reality, they only passed by."

"So that's what I am too. Just a passerby?"

"What do you think?" she replied, then hastily excused herself, telling him that it's time for her to prepare supper. 

The next day, she was surprised to find him standing by her porch because she thought that after their conversation from the night before, he wouldn't bother to come and visit her again. Yet there he was, patiently waiting for her to come out, and that's when she noticed that piles of wood and nails were laid out on the floor. Feeling confused, she asked what he was planning to do because she could not remember asking for help in fixing her porch.

"I'm not here to fix your porch." was all he replied

"Then what are you planning to do with all of these things?" she asked again

"If you wouldn't let me inside your house, then I'll build one right here in this place where you would let me in."

"Are you out of your mind? What do you mean you're building a house in  my porch? You cannot build a house here."

"Yes I can. And I would. But it won't be just a house. It'll be a home, because it has me and you in it. I'm doing this to remind you, my dear, that I'm not a passerby just like the others. I'm here to stay and I mean it."

Smother Me

We are the limbs tangled

into knots under the sheets,

displacing the cold air with 

the warmth emanating 

from our bodies;

the friction turning

the sparks into fire.

Let the smoke rise up

as it tries to smother us.

Just breathe into me

and I'll give you back the air

that you will need.

Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time

I found my place in the world

Could stare at your face for the rest of my days...

*** Seriously though, this is just one of those rare ocassions wherein I find the word "baby" sound truly endearing. ;)

Back at One

***Hi guys! It's been more than a year since I last wrote the story of this imaginary couple and suddenly they made their presence felt, so here it goes. This is a part of the story that kind of happened in between Coffee for Two and Infinite World. Tell me what you think. :)

"Please pick up your phone. We need to talk. Or if you don't want to, just please tell me you're okay. No matter what, I..."

She knew what's coming up so she clicked the delete button before he could finish the words that frightened her down to the core. 

Then the doorbell rang.

Shuffling to her feet, she quickly opened the door thinking that it was room service when suddenly she felt her heart drop to her feet as she caught sight of the man that had turned her into a thousand jumbled pieces. 

He reached out his hand to touch her, just to be sure that what he was seeing really was her, but when he saw her flinch and take a step back, there was nothing he could do to hide the pain that slashed through his heart.

Still looking at her feet, she asked "How did you find me?" 

"Why did you run away from me?" he countered, never minding the fact that he sounded like a tortured lover. Because indeed, he turned into a tortured soul when she suddenly disappeared. 

"I didn't run away. I just needed a few days to clear my head. I would have texted you once I get back."

"You could have told me. I would've come here with you if that's what you wanted."

"Isn't it obvious that that's not what I wanted?"

"Then why don't you tell me what you want?"

"Do I really even have to spell it out for you? Can't you see, it's simple. I don't want you here."

Clutching on to his chest as if the pain her words lashed onto him felt like a physical blow to his soul, he replied  "Wow. She can be mean if she wants to huh?"

"I can be meaner if you don't leave immediately. So why don't you just go now and let me be."

Without looking, she walked back inside the room, heading towards the balcony doors, because the air suddenly felt too thick for her to breathe. Not waiting for any invitation from her, he followed her inside.

Out onto the open deck, she perched herself on one of the chairs and closed her eyes. She didn't know what to say. How can she explain that she wanted him to stay as much as she wanted him to leave?

"Seriously, you didn't have to follow me here. I was planning to go back within the week anyway."

"You're right. I don't have to. But I needed to see you. To make sure that you're okay. So sue me for being worried over you." he angrily said as he stomped towards the other chair.

She finally conceded that she was in the wrong. Over the sound of the crashing waves, she whispered softly "I'm sorry."

Seconds ticked by, and they both silently sat side by side as they watched the waves crash onto the shore. All along she thought he hadn't heard her, so she got a little bit surprised when he spoke.

"There's no need for you to be sorry. If you wanted a moment for yourself, it's fine with me. You could've at least told me where you're going. Or at least, that you're leaving." Suddenly he stood up then went to where she was seated and sat down beside her.

With his eyes still glued to the sea shore, he asked "So you have any plans on telling me why you suddenly disappeared?"

Taking a deep breath she started with "Because you frighten me too much."

He sucked in his breath preparing for the next blow because he knew her too well to respond to that, and it hurts her more to think that he knew her that much.

"You brought out all these things I've learned to keep inside of me. I said I'd never fall in love and I never did." a lonesome tear managed to escape as she tried her best to keep her composure then huffing out a single breath, she continued "Well until you came along, that is."

Suddenly all of the aches from days ago left his body and relief washed over him. Finally giving in to the urge to touch her, he cautiously laid his hand on her shoulder and when she didn't resist, he tightened his grip and pulled her closer until he can feel the softness of her hair against his lips. 

He didn't realize how much he missed this. It felt like all of  his life, this was the only thing he was meant to do. Just to hold her.

Without moving his lips away from her head he murmured, "Would you like to know a secret too?"

As she nodded her response, he said "You frighten me as well." 

Pushing her far enough to look her in the eyes he continued "You frighten me too much I didn't know what to do when I realized that you were gone. I was afraid that the time we were together was only just a dream and I suddenly woke up. I thought I lost you forever."

She watched as the pain flashed across his eyes and it hurt her more. She touched his face, wanting to kiss away all the pain she caused him, but before she could, she held herself back because she wanted to explain herself more.

"I ran away because I watched someone die."

"He was a good guy. I didn't know him well but I always saw him with his family. They really looked so happy together. He and his wife and their little girl. What happened to him, to them, they didn't deserve it."

"Was this the guy who got robbed that you tried to rescue?" he quipped. He remembered her talking about it and realized that that's when she started to keep to herself at times.

"Yes. That's him. I did my best to stop the bleeding but I was too late. If only I saw him a couple of minutes earlier I could have kept him alive. If only then, maybe he'll be spending dinner with his family right now."

"But it wasn't your fault. It's not fair that you blame yourself for his death."

"Don't get me wrong. I'm not taking the blame. What really undid me then was when I got to talk with his wife after the incident."

"When I asked her how she was, she told me that she wasn't okay for the meantime but she knows that she'll be someday. Because she has to. For their daughter. Because she's all that she has left of him. She knows that a part of him lives in her and that's what keeps her going on."

"I tried to put myself in her shoes then and I suddenly saw you lying there on the pavement instead of him. surrounded with blood, and there's nothing I could do to save you. That's when I broke down."

"I ran away because I thought it could loosen the grip you had around my heart. That maybe if I put some space between us, it would be easier for me..." 

"For you to what?" he asked when she didn't continue

"For me to let you go." she said, trying to keeep the tears from falling.

"And why in God's name would you do that? Do you think I'd just be a willing participant that when you decide to let go, I'd let go too? Just because you  imagined me dying on the street. I'm sorry to say but that's not how I do it."

"I know. But can't you see? The pain I felt when I imagined that I lost you was all too real. I don't think I can be as brave as her. I'm not even sure if I can handle that much. That's why I thought it'd be better if I let you go as early as now because I thought I haven't sunk quite that deep yet."

"So let me get this straight. You tried to cut me out of your life because you're afraid that you might suddenly lose me?"

"Yes."

"Then let me ask you another question. Would it make any difference if let's say we've separated, then a couple of years from now, you'd hear news of my death. Would you hurt less? Because for me, I absolutely think it would only make the pain worse. To think that I let you live those years without me by your side. That one would hurt me more."

Realizing now her mistake, she closed her eyes. "How did this happen? All my life I've been able to keep myself from falling yet now, here you are, only a couple of weeks in and suddenly you laid claim for the rest of my pitiful of my life."

"Let's just say you laid the claim first, love. That moment when you bought this necklace." he said as he reached for the locket that brought them together.

With their arms wrapped tight around each other, they watched the sun as it slowly descended towards the horizon, while the warm breeze blew around them.

"Just to make things clear, there won't be anymore episodes of running away from me, right? Because I seriously will keep on hunting you down even if I have to drag you back  to where you belong."

"And where would that place be, if you don't mind my asking?" she playfully replied

"My bed." was his cocky response.

"You insufferable son of a ---"

"Ah-ah. Don't you dare curse my mother, woman."

"---pig. I was going to say, pig. Those wonderful human beings weren't your real parents anyway. They just adopted you."

"Seriously though, now that we've cleared things up. You want to go anywhere right now?"

Slipping her arms through his, she whispered against his ear "Anywhere will be fine. As long as you are in it."

source

You came and breathed new life. 

Into this lonely heart of mine. 

You threw out the life line. 

Just in the nick of time.

***P.S. It's quite interesting for me that while this story was forming inside my head, this song suddenly played on the radio. I liked how it sounded so I decided to use it as the title of my story and when I finally watched the video right now (because seriously, I've already forgotten about it since it was frrm a long time ago. ouch!) I was a little bit surprised that somehow it was kind of related to the story also. Coincidence? Let the fates decide. ;)

The One

In time,

I might forget

too many things

and the stories that 

came along with it;

too many names 

and the faces that they match.

But I know,

that even if my memory 

starts to fade,

my hands will never forget

the feel of your fingers

intertwined with mine.

Or how your voice

raises goosebumps on my skin

everytime you whisper my name.

My mind might 

forget the words,

but my heart will always

remember you.

Tell me,

Tell me that you want me,

And I’ll be yours completely

For better or for worse.

Smile in Your Heart

She's used to making
silly wishes eventhough
she knew they were nothing 
but just silly dreams.
Blowing on candles,
whispering on shooting stars
and, plucking out cloverleaves;
silently hoping her wish
would impossibly come to life.
But this time around,
she was not wishing for
silly things nor silly dreams.
For her only wish right now
is as much for him as it is for her.
That when he thinks of her,
he'll know that he's the reason
why she's making these silly wishes
on candles and shooting stars.

Fall Asleep

A cold draft of wind sneaks

in through my window sill,

sending shivers down my spine.

The resounding echo

of the heavy downpour against the roof

makes my heartbeat dance with its rhythm.

Settle down with me under the sheets,

and wrap me within the warmth and calmness

that only your arms could bring.

\

I just wanna fall sleep

I just wanna fall sleep

I just wanna fall sleep inside your arms...

***Just found out that these guys will be playing here on the 10th. It's just sad though because we won't be able to watch them perform then. Oh well, I guess we'd just have to wait for the next one. 

Shine My Way

You are this tiny ache
right between my chest.
A little bit unsettling,
yet the most welcome.
You are my most
bittersweet memory,
for the ache that the 
thought of losing you brings,
always reminds me 
how much you mean to me;
for you are the light 
slipping through the
gray skies high above
that shines my way.

The Moon Song

I was hypnotized by the moon,

drawn in by its beauty,

that it makes me hurt a little bit

inside just by looking at it.

Luring me to move 

my feet closer and closer

to where it sat 

prettily above the horizon, 

just like how the tides

were pulled in by its gravity.

It wasn't until when I was

chest deep into the saltwater

that I realized I was 

way in too deep and 

way too far from the shore.

That the only thing that's 

left for me to do

is to paddle my feet

and swim my way to you.

There's things I wish I knew

There's no thing I'd keep from you

It's a dark and shiny place

But with you my dear

I'm safe and we're a million miles away

Hi! Just wanted to greet you a happy full moon day.

 Hope it makes your night brighter and more special. 

^o^

Somewhere

When a niggling thought bothers you all throughout the day then later that night, you see someone saying the words out loud. Coincidence? The full moon surely does have a lot of tricks under its sleeve.

So in Love With You

Just wanted to share something that would surely make the hopeless romantic side of us swoon. Sometimes, it's really not all about the grand gestures. This seriously made my "a litttle bit more than usual stressful day" end on a happier note. :)

music: So in Love With You by Jake Etheridge

Spectacular Sky

Hi there everyone. I'm sorry if I'm currently in the mood to blabber some of my thoughts. Please bear with me. This is only a bout of temporary madness. ;) 

Anyway, it all started last night when my brother and I went out for an errand (we were just supposed to buy stuff needed for dinner) yet we somehow ended up buying myself a pair of slippers and trainers. It may sound like an insignificant event, but for me, the experience was kind of funny and ineteresting. 

I really wasn't planning on buying anything else except for a pair of slippers, but then I asked my brother to accompany me to look for the perfect pair of running shoes. So there we were, a pair of kids clad in ordinary house clothes, poring over the shops at the mall while arguing on how significantly different men and women are on the ways on how they do their shopping, when we came by to a sport store. Given with the way we looked, the store people didn't mind us so we were free to roam around without anyone hovering over us. 

Then voila! my eyes caught the sight of a pair of strawberry pink (don't judge. I swear it looks cool) Reeboks and when I looked at it, tadaa! it's on sale! I was hesistant to buy it at first because I was planning to buy my shoes on the next payday but my brother insisted that I at least try it on. Giving in to the urge, I slipped my foot into the most amazing shoe my foot has ever been in to and I suddenly felt like running out of the store even without the other shoe. No worries though, because I didn't. Then he asked me how it fit and when I said it's perfect, he answered "Then you have to buy that d*** Cinderella shoes". Seriously, my brother talking about fairytales is enough to weird me out, but when he added "That's what you call destiny. Because the reason that it's on sale and that the only pair left was on your size and that you found it now was because it's simple, you were meant to find it." With that speech coming from him, what else can I do but end up having him buy it for me instead. ;)

On our walk home, with my noisy brain bugging me again, I contemplated those things that he said. I know I should not take it seriously because for chrissakes, he was talking about a pair of shoes when he said it. But. There are some things there that are worth thinking about. Things are there for a reason. The choice to pick it up is yours. Would you hold yourself out for something better you think that mighth come along? Or do you pick up the first good one that you find, and make the most out of it?  I wonder which one most of you would choose?

As we lug our purchases through the footbridge and ran to the grocery for our real errand, I caught sight of another spectacular view in the sky. At first I thought it was just a light coming from one of the cranes that were being used for the construction of the skyrise buildings in our area, but when I focused my eyes on it, that's when I realized that it wasn't. It was Jupiter and Venus who were very near each other, it seems like they were less than an arm's length away. 

Then there I went again when I finally had the chance to lie on my bed and think about that spectacular sight. To think that those two were separated by a couple of planets and lightyears of space in between, yet still, during that moment in time, they seem close enough to touch. They patiently waited for that one moment where they can get as close as they could, and when they did, it created a wonderful sight. If I could only make one wish for them, it would have been that they could've spent more time together just to make up for their lost time and as a reward for their patience. Then again I remembered that NASA added another second yesterday which technically made that day a little bit longer than usual. So does this mean my wish came true after all? ;)