***This was supposed to be our post for the new moon but I'm just posting it now here in my blog. Sorry. ^o^v
The
truth about forever? I'm quite sure no one really knows what forever
really is. When will it really end? I remember a few years ago, probably
around four or five years ago, I wrote a post regarding "Promise and
Forever". basically, it's about how people who fell in love tend to make
promises that they'd love each other till the end of time, although
only a few of them were really able to keep that promise.
You
might find it a bit ironic that for someone who constantly writes about
love and other emotional stuff, I still feel cynical about the concept
of forever. I remember when I wrote before that I'd rather have someone
tell me that they love today than telling me that they will love me
forever and ever. Why? Well for starters, I believe that when some
people make this promise, they tend to get overly confident that the
person they made that promise to will believe it and hold on to it. That
even if that person (the one who made the promise) sometimes act like a
jerk or a bitch towards the other person (the one whom the promise was
made to) that person should just sit still and wait just because of that
f***in promise of forever. The thing is, they tend to take that promise
as an assurance that no matter what they do or don't do, the other one
should just take that promise by faith. Sometimes they tend to think
that "I already made that promise so I can act brashly today because I
got a whole lifetime to make up for it." and later on all their petty
fights will pile up and will end up hating the sight of each other
because both were expecting that each will meet their end of the bargain
but weren't able to.
Don't
get me wrong though, I still believe in love. But not the forever kind.
I'd rather have the everyday kind. The one where you can truthfully say
to the other person that "Hey, I love you today but later this day I
might be an ass and you'd hate my guts but I'd make it up to you later.
I'd even love you more with everything I could. That I can promise. ;)"
So there. I'm in a bit of a time crunch right now so I'd probably just get back to this topic some other time.
Happy New Moon everyone! ;)
***Anyway, the one posted below was the piece that I wrote which I mentioned above. And I got it wrong, it was only three years ago. haha! ;)
PROMISE AND FOREVER
Promise. We usually say it everytime we want someone to believe us that what we are saying is true. Saying "I promise that I will never leave you." has probably more conviction than "I will never leave you.", isn't it? But people nowadays are trying to make a "work-around-it" just so the power of the word promise would be less impossible, making it more realistic or within our control (i.e. promises are meant to be broken). I guess that's why promising something concrete like, "I promise I will buy you a toy." is a lot easier than promising something abstract like emotions. Telling someone "I promise to love you." could be frightening not only to the one who said it, but also to the one whom that person said it to. Because, admit it or not, you would want to believe it no matter how surreal it could be, right?
And on to the word Forever. Forever. I wonder who has ever experienced forever. Is there anyone out there who have witnessed forever? I've watched a lot of movies, read a lot of books, witnessed a lot of real life stories and still, everything has an end. Everything always ends. I wonder what the word forever is trying to give us. Is it a sense of stability? or just hope. Hope that somehow, that something "good" we have right now would always remain. Just like forever.
Promise and Forever. I guess it's not only common, but I it could be two of the most dangerous words you could ever say. Especially when you use it side by side with the word love. Maybe if you say these words to someone who doesn't mean so much to you, won't make you feel any anxiety at all. But when you say it to someone who's become a part of your life, it would be a terrifying experience. But in a good way. A terrifyingly good way. Because you would want to keep that promise. And that person, forever.
As for me. (I know, who am I to talk when I've never been there. But this is my post so what do I care? XD). As for me, I prefer the words "today" or "right now". Saying "I love you today" is a lot more comforting for me than the words "I love you forever". Because the anxiety surrounding the word forever just bugs the hell out of me. For me, it makes some people too much comfortable for their own good. That since they already promised their undying love to the other person, they could just make up for what they are lacking today the next day because they believe that they have forever on their side. And so on and on and on, until they get fed up with each other then hate each other forever too. And, "I love you today" makes more sense for me because tomorrow "I may hate you", but later that day, or the next day, I can say "I love you again right now." Did I make any sense?? =P
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