Mixed Signals

The sun hasn't risen yet and here I am, so wide awake, thanks to our Fil-Chinese countrymen for a one day reprieve. Gong Xi Fa Cai! :) 

Anyway, the problem with being wide awake at this hour is that one can't help but think about certain things in one's life. Well, in my case, it's about work. It's been more than a year since I started this job and the weird thing about it (well, for me anyway) is that I stayed with it. It might not be the best one or the best paying job, but then I find myself enjoying it. God knows I'm not a big fan of kids - well, unless they're related to me - and that's why until now, it's driving me bonkering mad while I wonder what made me stay. 

Another weird thing was, now that I'm contemplating about looking for a new one, suddenly, several of my kids dropped these on me, all within the same day:

Kid1: Nurse, are you getting sick again?

(This is because I'm sniffling at that time and before that, I had been absent for more than 2 weeks because of chicken pox)

Me: Yeah, it's just colds, but I'll be fine.

Kid1: But still you have to drink medicine so you'd get better.

Me: Don't worry, it's just colds. It'll go away soon.

Kid1: But I want you to feel better because I want you to be our nurse forever.

While I was giving this kid her medicine, she asked:

Kid2: Nurse, you'd still be here when we come back right?

Me: (a bit confused) Come back from where?

Kid2: From summer vacation. You'd still be working here next school year right?

Me: (a bit speeechless) Maybe yes. I'm not sure also. Why?

Kid2: (with a sad smile) Really? Nothing. It's just that it would be nice if you'd stay because I like you 'cause you're very nice.

Surprised that I'm back in my station:

Kid3: Nurse, where have you been?

Me: I've been sick. Why?

Kid3: Because I was sick last time and you were not here.

ME: But there's another nurse here right?

Kid3:Yeah. But still I missed you. Don't get sick again, okay?

These were just some of the "bombs" these kids dropped on me. Now I'm getting confused as hell as to whether I should leave or stay. Truth be told, I'm a huge believer of signs. Yet at the same time, I'm also the most cynical of them. I know I'm starting to sound crazy here and all of these blabberings are not doing me any good. Now I guess I should just sleep it off and leave the thinking for the next day. 

Well, as what my current book read (Keeper by Kathi Appelt) says:

That is a question for the universe.