Disappear

It's days like this
that makes me want to escape
to a place where no one knows me,
where no one will find me,
where I can only be myself.
Just to be free from all this pain
that loving too much could bring you.

It's hard being the one who 
always understands,
who always makes excuses for 
their actions.
Sometimes I wish I could
learn how to be selfish and numb,
just to be free from all this pain
that loving too much could bring you.

But wishing to disappear is all I could do,
because with these chains
wrapped tightly around my heart,
I know that it's as far as I could go.
Knowing that if I try to pull harder
against these shackles surrounding me
would probably hurt so much more than staying.

And I know I don't know much

But I know that a man feels many things

It's a fleeting urge to run

Like a bird flying by on a summer breeze

Like the sound of a train if you're listening

It just fades in, then it disappears

Walk away, leave it all behind

I dream of the escape but never try