Hi there! So we have this tradition in this blog that I share with Rhio that we always do during November's new moon. And that is, we write to our past and present selves.So here it is. :)
Dear 2015 Jhun,
So, how's life lately? Still writing that stuff you're not sure where you're getting the emotions from? Right now you're still drowning yourself on these weird emotions, I wonder if you're still feeling the same way or will you find your old self too silly. ;) Are you still feeling confused as you are now? I hope by now you finally found the answers that you were looking for.
How's work? Are you still on the same job that you've learned to love, though the kids are making you crazy, or have you finally tried looking for a job in a hospital or someplace else?
I won't ask you alot of questions this time. I just want you to tell me what had been the greatest turning point of your life starting this time. I'm not sure why, but I'm feeling something big is going to happen. I know, it might sound scary. It might even sound funny because who knows, maybe nothing would happen. But just in case there will be, I hope you've already gained enough courage to face it. Keep your chin up girl, we can make it. Tell me your story. What were the crazy, selfish things we did for ourselves? Any spontaneous decisions we did that somehow turned our world upside down or did we still keep on acting on the safe side? Now I'm curious about the stuff that we did. Trust me, it's okay if it's not all good. Just remember this:
No regrets.
Got it?
I wish you'd have a blast this coming year. Make it good. Turn it into something worth telling stories about. Okay? ;)
Till We Meet,
2014 Jhun
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Dear 2014 Jhun,
Funny how in a span of one year, your world could really suddenly turn upside down. Here's the thing, we really had a blast this year. Too many things happened, and all of them are memories worth keeping. So let's start a trip down the memory lane, shall we? ;)
First off, we had a good and not-so-good headstart with our year. Remember when we bought our tickets for the "The 1975" concert? And how we ended up having a case of chicken pox two weeks before the said concert. I mean, seriously?! We were already resigned to the fact that we will be missing the concert that we've waited for a whole year. But being the hard headed little brats that we were, we ended up telling Rhio that we've decided to join them even if we're all covered up in that freaking constellation of scars and what-nots. So for cover up, we swaddled ourselves in layers of clothing and face mask instead. Just like your typical bank robber strutting her stuff in broad daylight.:P (And it was a huge success!It doesn't matter how we almost got ourselves killed in a stampede though when we rushed four or five flights of stairs just for a free seat upgrade. Hahaha! We still felt amazing.)
It's also kinda little bit weird how this year was full of strange coincidences. Like when that time when you and Rhio were watching some random stuff on the internet, then suddenly thought of Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye, and you just randomly mumbled "If these guys will ever perform here, we should definitely watch it. Okay?" Then just a couple of days later, you skimmed over your Twitter newsfeed then like a Jackpot sign, you read the post "Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye in Manila." Really. What were the chances? And also remember how when you were talking again about that show of Zedd that you missed while you were still in college, so you made yourselves a deal that if ever he makes a come back, you said that you would never miss it? Then after a couple of weeks, voila! He announced that the True Colors tour was coming.
So many things happened that it felt like a roller coaster ride. From music concerts (The 1975, Incubus, Owl City, Us The Duo, Zedd, Walk The Moon), and spoken word (sarah Kay and Phil Kaye); to musicals (Singin' In The Rain) and out of town excursions and food adventures with friends (too many to mention. :P including our spontaneous beeline to the karaoke just to relieve ourselves from stress). Add to that our scheduled runs around UP and that day when you let your friend drag you to a Zumba class, which admittedly, was kinda fun. Truth be told, if this was the last year of my life, these things made it all worth it. :)
I hope by now, you feel proud of what we did. Are you? ;) Anyway, on to the serious stuff though. Yip, we're still writing. And no, we still don't have any idea where all of these ideas come from. Reading too much books, probably. You know how you get that feeling as if you're writing to someone or for something? Don't worry though, I don't find our old self silly. I'm even happy that she started doing these things because now, we felt more lighter - freer. Though we don't write on a daily basis anymore, but we try as much as we can to post regularly. We stopped scheduling posts because we decided that it felt more real and more honest for us if we post the things that we created right on the spot because it reflects on what we feel for that specific day. I hope we can keep doing this as long as we can, for as long as we need.
On with our work. Yeah, we're still here. Though now we've finally decided that after two years in this job, we've already reached our peak; and it's time for us to plant our roots someplace else. We'll definitely miss this place though. We made new friends and we're thankful because here we've learned to face many of our fears and we learned to conquer them. And I'm proud to say that we didn't have any regrets. And I hope that made you proud of us too. :)
Yours,
2015 Jhun
P.S. By the way, I forgot to tell you about that selfish, spontaneous, thingy that we wanted to do even just for once in our life. We decided to join this guided road trip that will happen on the last week of December. >(^o^)< It's a three day road trip that will end up on a full moon beach party and here's the catch: the destination is random. We won't have any idea where we're headed off, and we'll just trust ourselves to the hands of the tour organizers. Good luck to us and hopefully I can still comeback after this trip so that I can meet our 2016 self. :P
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Dear 2016 Jhun,
First off. How was the road trip?!?!?! I seriously want to know. Were you able to make it? I hope to god you did because if you didn't, I promise I'll swear you off to the deepest darkest ends of the earth. Just kidding. For a moment. :P
So kiddo, how are we? I wonder where you are currently seated right now while you're reading this. Are you still surrounded by the books we've collected all these years? By the same walls that we've painted and written poetry on just a couple of weeks ago? Remember how you felt when you started repainting these walls and your heart just twisted a little bit because you knew that you're letting go of a part of you to the backseat of this ride because you felt that you have to do it to make space for new memories? I remember that after finishing this room and I looked around, it felt like the room became too small because my roots have finally grown too big for this place and they're longing to spread themselves in another place. So what did you do about it? Did you ignore that call or did you listen to it? What were your reasons?
I wish you had yourself get lost. But not lost in the sense that you didn't know what to do with your life. I'm talking about getting lost in living - in fully experiencing your life not just by surviving it. When you let your own self decide where you want to go without the help of planned maps and unwarranted advice. It doesn't hurt to listen to them from time to time, but I hope that the choices you've made are the ones that you wanted to do in the first place.
So where are we working now? I'm kinda curious as to where we've finally landed our feet on. Did you miss working in school? The holidays and class suspensions? I hope you didn't turn yourself into a workaholic idiot though. :P
What did we do? Any grand vacations that we had? What are the new things we've tried? Tell me your story. I promise I will be here to listen.
Yours,
2015 Jhun
P.S. Another weird coincidence. Because you wrote this post at home last night where the internet connection's still down (raawr) and was about to post it here in the office and when you opened up Tyler Knott's blog, this was his typewriter for the day. Need anymore signs my dear? :P
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