Sunday, November 29, 2020

A Love Song

Love is what
makes the difference
at the end
of an exhausting day.
No matter how 
grueling your day
could be;
if what you seek
and what you find
at the end of each day
are peace and comfort,
and a hand to hold,
then you probably understand
how and why 
love is what 
makes the difference
at the end of an exhausting day.



'Cause everybody's needing
What the singers all are singing
In a love song.


Saturday, November 28, 2020

Angel

my day went by
in a blur
no time to breathe
no time to rest

my day went by
in a rush
here and there
everywhere

finally my day
came into a lull
where everything 
finally went 
hush hush hush

i sat on the grass
and looked at the stars
wishing i could just
sit with you and tell you how 
my day went by 
in a blur


Let me be empty
Oh, and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of the angel







Thursday, November 26, 2020

The One

he was the one
who made me see
that there's more to life
than just him and me.
even though
we are just mere 
specks of dust 
in comparison
to the vast size 
of this universe,
in all of these lifetimes
we spent apart
in search of our own purpose,
him and me
will always 
find our way 
back to each other
like we're supposed to be.

- worth the wait -



You make my heart feel like it's summer
When the rain is pouring down
You make my whole world feel so right when it's wrong
That's how I know you are the one


Tuesday, November 24, 2020

Something I Need

Please be patient
and have a little faith in me.
After all this time,
just when I thought
all the puzzle pieces
were finally in place,
you scrambled it all again
and threw in your pieces
as well.
Now here I am,
grappling with the fact that,
as I try to put 
the puzzle back together,
you are something I need.



You got something I need
In this world full of people, there's one killing me
And if we only die once (hey)
I wanna die with you (you, you, you)



Sunday, November 22, 2020

Sleeping To Dream

dreary heart
weary bones
dragging feet
to where we meet
in search of repose
in search of home

- you'll always be my home



Sleeping to dream about you
I'm so damn tired of having to live without you
But I, I don't mind
I'm sleeping to dream about you, I'm so tired
I'm so tired


Saturday, November 21, 2020

Partners in Crime

Sometimes 
with most people
my mind goes blank
and I just can't find
the right words to say -
so an awkward silence ensues.

But,
between
You and I,
there are times
when we don't need words -
and silence is just a part
of this language that we share.

- actions speak louder than words -




But isn't that what friends are for
Even if we used to be more?
Like lovers or partners in crime
When you were still mine




Thursday, November 19, 2020

I Carry Your Heart

Everyday I keep a brave face
as I listen to their stories
of times that have gone by.

Everyday I keep a brave face
even if my heart cracks in places
everytime I hear the sound 
of longing in their voices.

Everyday my heart breaks
knowing that I would probably be
the last person to remember
the stories of their 
long forgotten past.

Then I think of you
and I hope you know that, 
even if the time comes
when the world may seem
to have forgotten you,
I will always carry your
heart in mine.



i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)






Wednesday, November 18, 2020

I Miss You

I swear I don't
miss you at all.
not the way 
you light up my day
over the simple things
you do to make my day;
or how you make everything
sound interesting
from the complex to the mundane.
who am I kidding,
when I say I don't miss you?
if every waking and dreaming
moment I spent,
were mostly filled
by thoughts of you.





To see you when I wake up, is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same, as I do, is a three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line, If I said
I miss you.


 

Sunday, November 15, 2020

Could I Love You Any More?

I asked myself 
countless of times
if falling in love
is truly a risk
worth taking.
Then came you
and I realized that
the question is 
now just rhetorical.
For how can love not be
a risk worth taking
if it's you who is there
waiting for me
to take that leap with you.



Sunrise, time flies, feels like a dream
Being close, inhaling, hard to believe
Seven billion people in the world
Finding you is like a miracle
Only this wonder remains



Saturday, November 14, 2020

There's No Way

it usually takes me 
quite some time
before something naturally
becomes a habit.
but with you
it only took -
a flicker of a smile
and self-deprecating laugh;
and a glimpse of
that sensitive soul
hiding underneath the surface.
now you're one hell of a
hard habit to break.



We just dance backwards into each other
Trying to keep our feelings secretly covered
You touched me and it's almost like we knew
That there would be history


Sunday, November 8, 2020

Kiss on my List

 





When they insist on knowing my bliss
I tell them this
When they want to know what the reason is
I only smile when I lie, then I tell them why
your kiss is on my list
(Because your kiss) your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss is on my list of the best things in life




Saturday, November 7, 2020

Love is the Answer

too many questions
flitting around
this complex mind

a game of query -
an overthinkers
favored past time

a contest of wits -
finding the best scenario
for the game of what ifs

yet the answer is always simple
it may just be hard to accept
for an excessively complex mind

- too good to be true





Light of the world, shine on me
Love is the answer
Shine on us all, set us free
Love is the answer


Friday, November 6, 2020

Well I Wonder

lying on the rug
staring at the ceiling
hitting rewind
pressing play
listening to 
the scratching sound 
the speakers make
as the cassette tape
spins around
backward and forward
in time
repeating the 
same song
again and again
the one that resonates
the thoughts inside my head

- well i wonder




Gasping - dying - but somehow still alive This is the final stand of all I am Please keep me in mind Well I wonder


Thursday, November 5, 2020

Sleep On The Floor

the landing place
undetermined,
the port of call
unknown,

which path to take
a mystery,
the fellow traveler
an enigma,

each day a maze 
of twisted alleys
where the only constant
is tomorrow -

tomorrow
and all of its uncertainties;

and you -
you who makes 
it all worthwhile.




Pack yourself a toothbrush dear
Pack yourself a favorite blouse
Take a withdrawal slip
Take all of your savings out
'Cause if we don't leave this town
We might never make it out


Tuesday, November 3, 2020

That Sparks Fly Moment

a spur of the moment
an accidental hello
that lit up the spark
and thawed a once frozen heart
that already forgot
how to beat
now skipping and dancing
in an erratic beat


drop everything now
meet me in the pouring rain
kiss me on the sidewalk
take away the pain
'cause i see sparks fly
whenever you smile


While I was looking through some of the old posts here in my blog, I suddenly realized that it was exactly seven years ago today when I posted one of my stories here. Damn. As I was reading it, I was cringing a little bit here and there, but still laughing at the silliness of the girl that I was before.😂 I gotta admit, that girl was a hopeless romantic down to the core, and in some ways, I kinda miss her.😅

So this story, which I advise you not to read if you don't like stories that are drenched in syrup and sprinkled with sugar, was inspired by the lunacy of my bestfriend and I. It was during our early "Swiftie" days and we were both swooning over the song Sparks Fly by Taylor Swift. So what we did, we used the song as a writing prompt for creating a story about our "dream sparks fly moment". And boy was it ever oh so cheesy. Until now, I'm still trying to figure out where all the mushiness came from.

In case you want to read it, click on this link. Don't blame me though if you end up getting swarmed by ants and bees once you're done with it..😂

It's been years, and now it feels like these characters that I've created inside my head, on that day seven years ago, are calling me once again to finish their story. The only problem is, I'm not sure if I can; after all of the struggles and the heartaches, the priorities and the responsibilities - the growing up that was needed. Now I don't know if I can continue their story knowing that I already gave up those rose-tinted glasses I once wore when I created them. I don't know if I can still give them the happy ending that they deserve. I know I owe it to them, and hopefully in time I could, but probably not yet soon.