Lost At Sea

Here I stand 

underneath the sky,

my feet sinking deep

into the sand and sea.

Here wherein

dark and light collides

I'll see your face

amongst the clouds.

The distance in between

has nothing against

what we have.

For when I stand here

where the sun meets the sky,

I can feel you standing here

with me

as we watch in awe

at the the world that 

holds both of us in.

It never ceases to amaze me that every time my feet touches the sand, and the sea wets my feet, it always feels like coming home to me. I feel blessed that whenever I visit my grandma, I can just step out of her house and step into this.

Is It Too Late? (To Apologize)

Hello there my dear friends. I just want to apologize for being gone for quite a long time. It really wasn't my intention to suddenly leave you hanging. Yet, after awhile, I didn't intend to come back also. I guess I just got a little bit scared because when I began writing, it felt like I was leaving my heart out open to everything. To all the joys and heartaches that a heart can hold, which can be quite overwhelming for someone who has always been used to bottling up her feelings inside. Circumstances forced me to stop for awhile, and day after day, I kept on making reasons to myself why it's for the better. But circumstances also made me realize, who am I kidding? It doesn't make everything better, idiot. All along I was just making it worse, trying to stay away. So why make myself miserable if I already know how to make it better, ayt? But I can't promise you though that I'll be back in full swing. But trust me when I say that I'll do everything I can to stay.;) Thank you for keeping faith. :)

I Try

All the signs,
I somehow tried to ignore,
relentlessly led me back to you.
I kept my mouth shut
and these feelings as well,
as I tried to teach
myself each day
that you were just
a mere happenstance
that coincided with my
thoughts,
thoughts that I trusted
to be the signs
that will lead me to
anywhere but here.
Though how can I
trust these thoughts,
when I can't even
find the courage in me
to trust my own gut?
A part of me wants to keep
my faith in you.
Yet a part of me too
is too afraid to put
too much faith in you.